It’s been waaaaaay too long since I posted anything to The Be Here Now Experiment. I mean, it started as a little test to see what I could do in 30 days, see if I could really dive into mindfulness for a month and see how it worked. And it worked great!

But life happens. Things get in the way. And I neglected my little tumblr.

Today I followed some friends’ links and here I am, back at my tumblr, realizing I need to be here at this exact moment. Because I am Fucking Pissed Off. I’m pissed off at my toe. I’m pissed at the wall I bumped it against so hard I broke it sideways, I’m pissed that the walls in this tiny apartment are so close together, I’m pissed that I live in a tiny apartment. Do you catch where my mind is going? In a circular downward spiral? Mmm hmm.

So let’s see, where do I need to be? Do I need to be thinking about all they whys, the hows, the reasons for everything? Or do I need to be with my little piggy, which is enormous and purple and aching, and needs ice and elevation and rest? Do I need to be thinking about the past, all the things I’ve done to get where I am, all the mistakes I’ve made that have me in this situation? Or do I need to be here in this moment, taking care of myself?

The answer seems obvious. I am here, now. With my toe.